Thats wild, none of those resources were around when I was that age.

I sat in a meeting, it was late here so I hit a west coast meeting. Nice group of folks, it was helpful hearing others talk about being sober and the issues before and after. Definitely will keep exploring as I get a better feel for the community.

I remember @ 7-8yo going to the local convenience store with a note to buy my mom cigarettes.

Dang there are a ton of them up there!

Ok I’ll give it a go and let you know how it goes after. Than you again!

Gah I wish I was near one of those cities, I’m not to far from DC though… Thats a heck of a drie though.

I will say today has been better than yesterday. Kept busy, started taking a vitamin B complex per a lot of the big med/sobriety sites. Got out of the house for a bit, next will find a local meeting. Its slim pickin’s unless I want to drive over an hour.

Now about calling, I’m terrible about that, rather an introvert when it comes to talking to strangers.

But right now its one moment at a time. Keeping everything low stress and low sensory overload. The last two falling offs was socializing too much too fast IRL. Felt great and was whats the harm in one… Then 2 two weeks later I’m back at it at the same levels.

Kinda why I’m slow on the meetings/seeing trusted friends atm.

Thats got to be tough getting dry when you deal w/ booze all the time.

I’m feeling it that is not easy. Craig Ferguson talks about it pretty candidly in one his monologues. I try to keep that in mind right now. If it was easy to kick there would be a single drunk on the planet…

1. Japan
2. Costa Rica
3. Argentina
4. Thailand
5. Poland

I feel that, it sucks I have a beer shop and a liquor story literally right next door. I just opted for funny/interesting YT vids until midnight. My version of hanging onto the bed.

I opted out of ant zoom calls as I was trying to get the thoughts out of my head. Slept terrible, couldn’t fall asleep until 0400 and the most surreal dreams kept that sleep fitful at best.

I do feel better than yesterday so so thats keeping going. Need to eat more today, head feels much clearer, I think some gator-aid or the like would be a good idea too.

And thanks for taking the time to reply, its helping more than you know.

I’ll try a speaker meeting asap, hearing stories like you posted will be inspiring because if they can do it so can I. And 3 hours will be the end of day 2, looking forward to starting day 3 :)

I’ll give that a go, I’m struggling a bit right now and I can’t let going back happen. Hour and a half that option is gone (can’t sell beer after midnight here). Until then off to see what meetings are open.

I love listening to baseball and hockey vs watching it. You have to imagine the game, gets those electrons firing.

I definitely need the distraction tight now.

Ok thats what I needed, now the meetings notes make more sense.

I’ll dig in tomorrow, tonight I’m still feeling out of sorts. Or maybe just listen in a online meeting. But on a brighter note my symptoms feel like they are going away. No heart racing, no fever, just feel icky w/ a very light headache and the occasional sweating.

I’ll keep you posted tomorrow (Day 2) on how its going. Also I have to say it again thank you for all the help/explaining/etc it means a lot!

Will do, online is probably better option until I feel normal again. It would just be super awkward to be there IRL.

And I have seen a lot of jargon in my looking around like open/closed meetings?

Anyone remember when the French farmers got pissed off at the government and used a manure spray to coat the president house outside and inside?

Oh and they did it again to clear their fields of “travelers”

I’ll check out that app. And I get wanting big city meetings over what I have run into in rural area’s. The infighting was nauseating. Crosstalk, threats, epeen comparing, I walked of the last one midway thru.

I hit a couple meetings in LA and San Diego (before I got bad I went to support a friend) and meetings were 100x more civil. So I seen what your saying. And like you said way diverse, I got more out of it than you know.

Again thank you and everyone else on here for taking the time to help me.

Looking forward to that time :)

Right now its a light headache, stomach inst happy and go back from hot to hold every other minute. Oh and can’t stop yawning, so its a ton better than 12 hours ago.

Others have said that too, next step after I hit 3-4 days it will a meeting or two. I wish I had more options, its pretty much only AA here and I have been to some really ugly meetings.

I can do that pledge with you! I got some food and me and thats helped, still need to eat a bit more. My next 24 hours would be right around noon EST. I’ll keep the eye on the prize and not over think what its going to be like on day 3 or day 30.

I’ll look into that book. Last one I read was Russell Brands book “Recovery” its a good read. And someone sent a .pdf link on here for same recommended reading. The outpouring of support has been great, I really hope I don’t miss anyone and not respond.

Thank for the encouragement and the challenge :)

I’ll give it a read, I have been of and on looking good info and how to deal with this. Thank you!

There are too many similarities in your back story that I have had. I can’t wait til I don’t have to cancel plans or go out to eat because I had 6 beers and counting. How may times I caught myself w/ the keys in my hand of because I was drinking so much I would forget and nearly get behind the wheel.

I cut off all my “bar friends” years ago. Too much to deal with when not wanting to drink and they are riding you “Come on just have one”

Health issues too, hopefully its not too late.

Also I have 2 restaurants owned by of close friends that I can go to. They saw how much I was drinking and banded me from ordering alcohol. I do get all my soft drinks for free, they really were worried when they said “no more”. And its not like they don’t a lounge full functioning drunks, they do. But for me they must liked me more than what I was spending a night at their bar. And it was a lot of money.

I’m sure there are a ton of grammatical error in my post, forgive my brain is in a state, but you know that :)

Thank you for taking the time to respond, I really appreciate it. And I have to do it, I don’t think I have it in me if back slide and have to do this again…

lol thats exactly I did, I had a bowl of soup not even 20 minutes ago! I got some really good ramen too in the pantry that will be next! Great advice, than you!

Its nice to hear this from another that knows because thats what I’m doing. I got a call from my mom and just couldn’t deal with it because its sometimes like a interrogation with all the questions.

Keeping my YT/Rumble vids as non political as possible. Light interaction on Lemmy, absolutely no reddit. Fortunately (or unfortunately) not working so that stress isn’t over the top. My industry is a heart attack industry so I am ok with burning up some savings to get “right”.

Thank you for reaching out w/ some great advice. I will put it to work now :)