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I just want to hug him and tell him and anyone his age that “teenage/school years are the best years of your life” is a bold-faced LIE.
It gets better.
It gets WAY better.
That little fuckhead got me into this mess.
14 y/o me would be pretty damn jealous.
He’d probably give suicide a lot more consideration.
I’m an incredibly lucky man
I’ve led a life that even I sometimes have to remind myself isn’t a dream
I have loved deeply, been married, divorced, engaged again to the person who is my best friend
I have travelled, seen amazing things, lived in a few countries and experienced things I couldn’t have imagined
I have studied at university, as well as getting a trade and progressing a very long with that
I have been wealthy, I own some stuff that the younger me would think is pretty cool, but I have few material possessions now because “stuff” doesn’t really matter to me
I have lived in some of the biggest cities in the world, and now I enjoy peace and quiet in one of the most beautiful places in the world
The porn I create has tens of millions of views, I’ve done things that are wild, creative and on occasion, sexy
I’m the luckiest bastard on Earth
Look, I’d like to see that little shit do better.
I’m playing video games all day every day. He would be amazed. It’s adult me knows it’s bad
I mean…14 yo me would be pretty put off by my smoking fentanyl on the weekends to feel normal again cause methadone is a hassle / the bupe shot feels like being set on fire. The prescription drug addiction started at 15, so ehhh. 26 years later and I still love dope. Put it in my lung, veins, nose, mouth, I don’t care. Just want to nod into the void.
Brotha have you ever thought about starting to cut back and see how it feels?
Man I really hope you can get this under control for yourself dude. The methadone might be a hassle but it can seriously be one of the best ways to get you out of the cycle. It does work and will make you not get sick which can then help you focus on living your life like other people that aren’t using drugs.
That’s the hardest part is transitioning back to what normal people do and are about and it takes awhile to actually feel that joy from those things but I swear dude it will happen after enough time and it will move you like nothing else has to be on that end of it and look back and see what you overcame. I don’t know you, but I believe in you seriously. Believe in yourself because you can overcome this problem in your life if you put all your effort into it. I promise its worth it.
I would just encourage 14 year old me to knock my dad out until he figured out I wasn’t his beast of burden to yell and scream at. The last time he laid hands on me was 14. At the time I didn’t realize I physically intimidated him.
I would kick 14 year old me in the ribs without a second thought. Kid was dumb af.
14 year old me knows that if he ever sees me he should start running. Unfortunately for him I can just run 14-year old me over with the family van. Then back up. Then drive again. Then backup again.
14 year old me would not even have the capacity to comprehend it.
Future was just some made up nonsense back then and absolutely every single adult was part of a hive mind connected back to my mother. In addition, people weren’t really people, they were more like background noise who i had to be cautious of. The world didn’t exist outside my field of view.
Holy moely! Did something change your mind/perspective or do you still see people like that?
Not really, still the same. Though don’t get me wrong, as i can assume it gets interpreted as i treat people badly or abuse them in any way. I don’t. I am not a sociopath or psychopath, that has been confirmed by a psychologist. I just completely lack the “connection” concept with people. ASD hits my social aspect the strongest.
For me people aren’t really special, we’re all just biological machines. Pretty much the same as a robot vacuum cleaner, just much more complex. I treat objects and people the with the same love and care, but that means that people melt into the same indistinguishable background noise. Like how much attention do you give to a random item on the street when walking past it? Just enough to not stumble into it and that’s it.Though I’ve never understood why it’s supposed to be bad? It’s not in any way harmful to others, maybe even positive as there’s no judgment or any negative treatment towards them and once i have to actively engage with anyone. I remain cordial and often times even outright friendly and helpful.
Absol-fucking-lutely they would. 14 year old me was dealing with some bullshit and would be ecstatic that we got through it and that things got better. Kudos to anyone who survived their teens and come out even mildly well adjusted, much less happy.
I think 14 year old me would be most disappointed that I’m no longer catholic. She’d probably be a mix of angry and excited that I’m trans. Shocked and confused when I explain to her that her parents’ marriage is really really bad and she’s going to need therapy for the way her dad treats her. Then she’s going to be kinda pissed when I tell her that her dad is right about her needing to do better in school, it’s just that he shouldn’t be yelling at her until she self harms about it. She’ll be proud I’m still friends with her friends and that I got out of Ohio to somewhere cool.
Oh then she’s going to be incredibly disappointed I married someone with tattoos, especially since I’ll call her a classist little shit about it, and that I never had kids.
14 year old me would wonder how im still alive LOL
No shit.
