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This is something I need to work on, and its more apparent to me after having a conversation with my mother recently.

She said something quite unpleasant to my bf, and when I said how hurtful it was to both of us I was met with her denial, her refusal to see how hurtful it was and it was my fault for being upset, and also that I should just move on and forget about it

If she’d said that it came out wrong, or was sorry to have said something that had landed in a hurtful way etc that’s all I/we would have needed

Unfortunately i can see this attitude in myself, in the fact I find it near impossible to apologise for anything

I think my mother has a lot of her own issues around this, and I have my own ‘version’ because of my issues (my autism, and the fact that she’s my mum)

So I’m now going to do my best to rethink my behaviour and do some self reflection…

I really don’t want to be like my mother at all

I love the fact that you have a 3d printed dachshund trophy for your wife’s trophy wall

What a beautiful experience, you’ve put in words a similar experience I had, but so much better. It triggered a very happy memory and a big smile 🥰

I’ve had a few quite profound experiences, one where I saw all the patterns in the universe, a peak behind the curtain of the maths that creates all natural phenomena. And another where I dissolved and became the northern lights

I also became the mushrooms once, I was in the ground amongst the soil particles existing as the mycelium threads, then decided to grow upwards as the fruiting bodies of the mushrooms above ground

I’ve had some amazing experiences of being other things in nature

I hate the fact that most (but not all fragrances) are shoehorned into male/female categories Its a smell! It doesn’t have genitalia, if you love it wear it And as a fragrance nerd I have a lot of supposedly ‘masculine’ scents full of woods, spices, booze etc A (male) truck driver mentioned that he loved wearing Chanel no5 on one of the fragrance sites which I think is fantastic! A man comfortable with himself and wearing what he loves